Waiting

The title is simple and the thought simpler. Most of our lives we spend waiting for some thing or things. School to start or end. For Christmas, our birthday, Movies, a CD and Books to come out. I can be very impatient  (ask Michelle). Part of it is our world and post modern Culture is all about instant gratification, what I can get now and fast. The other part is I just don't like waiting. I think it is a waste of time, I really don't like lines because we wait, wait and wait. One thing that was great about the premier of Eclipse is there was no waiting they just let us go in and get seats in an already almost full theater. Don't get me wrong some things are worth waiting for, because when you get it; it means that much more. That is one things a love about prayer, you pray, then you have to wait for the answer. Reading this you are probably thinking one of 2 things. WOW he hates waiting in a line but loves waiting for prayer, or  this almost has no point it does I promise.

Waiting for prayer is different when you pray, I think God takes some time and sees what you really need and then gives it to you. When you conquer a sin that you have been praying for to end, praying for help, and praying for the grace to conquer it, then you do it feels much sweeter because you know God won't put you though anything you can't handle...and you handled it, with his help of course. I remember when I started playing guitar, and I just wanted to get to the being good part, I would try and play a B chord, which is a more advance barre chord,  and I would pray Jesus just make me good at playing the guitar, i want to serve you with music. Now I really started playing when I was a freshman.  I just finished my first year in college and I gave up trying to play the B, or any real adv advanced  chord. I would look at the chord charts and hear a voice in my head saying, my fingers don't bend that way,  that chord is impossible. I would just get discouraged and try to make it simple. One day I said you know what I am going for it, and I was able to play a B with no problem. I listened to a voice that was waiting. Waiting for me to fail, wanting me to turn my back and say no, i will just play 4 chord songs the rest of my life. Jim Beckman wrote a book, it is called "God, Help Me: How to Grow in Prayer". When I went to Stuby my senior and last year. He had just published this book. He was talking about these 3 voices we hear in prayer and life. Our voice, God's voice, and the Enemy's  voice. This last one bothers me but think about when you are praying. When I was praying after the open house for Core, to see if God is really calling me to be on Core. I heard all 3 voices, 

One said "You know, you are too young for this, no reason to do it now you have a lot of sins you need to work on before you can be that guy." 

Another said " Well you have wanted to for so long, you seem to know what you are doing, you might be good at it."

The other said "You are one of my beloved sons, I called you to this, this is my will, my plan, and do my work."

This isn't made up I was in adoration and this is what I heard.  It wasn't hard for me to figure out which one was which; and who to listen to, If you are a teen there is a few things you need to know about Core, we don't have all the answers, we sin, and we are just people. People who also have to ask question, Ms. Frizal on Magic School Bus said you have to ask questions to get answers, how true. 

~Afro-Bobby